Disappointment

It’s hard to know what other people want. Even that I already tell them what I want. I am thinking so hard so that we can find a better life for both of us. Her mouth says agree but her heart wasn’t agree. I am very disappointed by her act. There weren’t any trust among us. Than why should I hold it any much longer?

My feeling slowly fade away for every act that she’s done; none of them ease my responsibility. Everytime she had problems with her family, I am been responsible for it. I don’t know how long I can stand this situation.

I am a free man, free to love and free to be with somebody that I love. Somehow, she is not the women I fell in love with, no she is not.

These past few days my eyes seem want to pour down tears. I don’t understand why and I am keep asking what’s wrong?

Now, may be I am already know the answer in front of me. I am really disappointed because I am almost have nothing. Only few things that left include my common sense and my pride.

It seem soon or later, I will have to leave her and find the right one for me. Pursuit of my own happiness, even it will cause other people happiness. Today, I am watching Oprah’s and there were people who wait for a lifetime just to wait for their soul mate, one person that they love from their deepest heart and they know that she is the one. I haven’t find the one.

There’s one thing that cross my mind and that is when you really love someone, you will be happy no matter what happen because we know, having each other is enough strength for us to keep on going. Be with that somebody we love, we will never give up. We will face the world like there weren’t anything in the world could come between us. And our love will be forever and ever.

I still believe in that, I believe there’s somebody out there have the same feeling with me. And I believe there is someone out there that meant to be with me. Someone that gives you spirit when you’re down, someone to share laughter and tears. Someone that knew I am belong with.

Someday, I will find it and I will never let it go.

Where are you my love?

Where do you go?

What do you do?

Are you looking for me?

Do you feel the same for me?

Would you meet me?

I know there are no answers for every question in this world

But if you feel the same like me

Than don’t you worry

Because out here I am waiting

and listening to the wind

that carries your song of love to me

I’ll be waiting my love

One year, two years or even forever

I’ll be waiting

I don’t have any treasure to give

Beside the heart shape diamond

To ensure that it will last forever

A precious heart that will always shine for you

To give you anything you need

At last forever