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The saddest day in our life, maybe when we only living by our self. There were no parties that last forever, an old man said to me. One day everything will be over. Just like our lives, born than grown up and getting old after that is end.
Lately, I decide to live by own. No more connection with anybody. No my girl friend, no parents, no families, no friend and no social live. Just spending my time playing computer or playstation, and watching DVD and television. Just sit in my favorite couch with snack and soft drinks in my hand.
Day by day past, while I am staying in my house and just live by my self. I am even don’t know how long I’ve been staying like this. No sunshine through my windows. No one for me to talk to. Then I am run out of DVD to watch and television show were no good. All the playstation games were already finish. Then I turn on my computer, than I connect to my internet.
Just when I connect to the net, few of my program were starting automatically. My messenger, my email, suddenly fill with a lot of message from everybody. Than I start to opened one by one. Wait it is wrong, I should haven’t opened it. I want to live by my self. I don’t need them and I don’t want them. I just want to live by my self without anyone come in to my life.
Than I turn my computer off. Silent, I just in my couch. No DVD, no television, no playstation and no more computer. I am asking to my self, what will I do?
Hopeless, I feel hopeless. At that time the only thing that I have are my mind and my heart. My mind was so quiet and my heart feel so empty. I don’t want to admit that I am lonely. This is my decision and I am ready for it. I will take all the consequences.
This is my choice!