Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I hate my self
Where is the perfect world? Where is the place that we can love somebody without have to been judge by who we are and what we have? Where people honor each other? Where a simple man with a simple love will accept in society? Is there any such place for me to live in? Where are there?!
I am lost, I am angry, I am sad, I am confuse and I have no place to go.
Is it me who ask too much? Is it me who can’t be grateful? Is it me the one that have done wrong? Is it this all happen because of my sins?
Tell me, where did I go wrong? Please light a candle for me, so I can see in the dark. Show me the road and I will be going?
Please……if anyone out there, who could hear me? Please give me an answer.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Disappointment
It’s hard to know what other people want. Even that I already tell them what I want. I am thinking so hard so that we can find a better life for both of us. Her mouth says agree but her heart wasn’t agree. I am very disappointed by her act. There weren’t any trust among us. Than why should I hold it any much longer?
My feeling slowly fade away for every act that she’s done; none of them ease my responsibility. Everytime she had problems with her family, I am been responsible for it. I don’t know how long I can stand this situation.
I am a free man, free to love and free to be with somebody that I love. Somehow, she is not the women I fell in love with, no she is not.
These past few days my eyes seem want to pour down tears. I don’t understand why and I am keep asking what’s wrong?
Now, may be I am already know the answer in front of me. I am really disappointed because I am almost have nothing. Only few things that left include my common sense and my pride.
It seem soon or later, I will have to leave her and find the right one for me. Pursuit of my own happiness, even it will cause other people happiness. Today, I am watching Oprah’s and there were people who wait for a lifetime just to wait for their soul mate, one person that they love from their deepest heart and they know that she is the one. I haven’t find the one.
There’s one thing that cross my mind and that is when you really love someone, you will be happy no matter what happen because we know, having each other is enough strength for us to keep on going. Be with that somebody we love, we will never give up. We will face the world like there weren’t anything in the world could come between us. And our love will be forever and ever.
I still believe in that, I believe there’s somebody out there have the same feeling with me. And I believe there is someone out there that meant to be with me. Someone that gives you spirit when you’re down, someone to share laughter and tears. Someone that knew I am belong with.
Someday, I will find it and I will never let it go.
Where are you my love?
Where do you go?
What do you do?
Are you looking for me?
Do you feel the same for me?
Would you meet me?
I know there are no answers for every question in this world
But if you feel the same like me
Than don’t you worry
Because out here I am waiting
and listening to the wind
that carries your song of love to me
I’ll be waiting my love
One year, two years or even forever
I’ll be waiting
I don’t have any treasure to give
Beside the heart shape diamond
To ensure that it will last forever
A precious heart that will always shine for you
To give you anything you need
At last forever