Turn

No one knows what it is in the next turn. No one understands why life is unpredictable. Some of us just walk it through and some of us just wait and see.
I am in a long road and now I have to take the turn. I can’t tell where I will be heading. I just want to go to my paradise. A place that once I believe to be a place for a brand new start. Place that has opportunity and chance to achieve my dreams. But now, I just have to make that turn.

I am thinking about things that I’ve done in past. I try to remember how many times I survive from the wrong turn that I choose in past. My memory surprised me, I have been in the wrong turn many times in my life but I am still survived. It doesn’t matter anymore. There will be always a wrong turn but by not choose the same path again; I just might turn in the right way. Just as we want it. But still, I have to make that turn.

The hard part is to have courage and faith to step in the place that I don’t want to be. Everything seems so unsure when I step out side the road that once I knew. I tried to think and be positive about it. But still, I have to make that turn.

I just wish that someone will tell me “it’s alright; you are in the right road”. Than they will show me the right turns. And I’ll be heading to my paradise. Than everybody will welcome me as a winner and I don’t have to make a single mistake when I am in the road. Everything will be a happy ending for me. But still, I have to make that turn.

I pray a lot and I give a lot. And I hope good things also going to happen to me. I am kind to every people that I met, I love children and do whatever it takes to keep them safe. I protect everything with all my strength. And I am never break the law. I feel like I was life with the Law. So I am also be protect by Law. And I can be there safe. But still, I have to take that turn.

You and me, we were a like. I have to choose where I am going to. And no matter what, I have to decide where to turn. Turn in the good ways or turn in the bad ways. It’s my choice to be. I just hope GOD will give me strength to walk it through. Whenever, I am in the right turn or in a bad turn. Sometimes I am also thinking that I am crazy and stupid, believe in something that I never see or meet. Just like pick up a stranger in the road. I never know what is going to happen. For that, I know that I am already take the turn and I guess it’s a good turn for me.

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The saddest day in our life, maybe when we only living by our self. There were no parties that last forever, an old man said to me. One day everything will be over. Just like our lives, born than grown up and getting old after that is end.
Lately, I decide to live by own. No more connection with anybody. No my girl friend, no parents, no families, no friend and no social live. Just spending my time playing computer or playstation, and watching DVD and television. Just sit in my favorite couch with snack and soft drinks in my hand.
Day by day past, while I am staying in my house and just live by my self. I am even don’t know how long I’ve been staying like this. No sunshine through my windows. No one for me to talk to. Then I am run out of DVD to watch and television show were no good. All the playstation games were already finish. Then I turn on my computer, than I connect to my internet.
Just when I connect to the net, few of my program were starting automatically. My messenger, my email, suddenly fill with a lot of message from everybody. Than I start to opened one by one. Wait it is wrong, I should haven’t opened it. I want to live by my self. I don’t need them and I don’t want them. I just want to live by my self without anyone come in to my life.
Than I turn my computer off. Silent, I just in my couch. No DVD, no television, no playstation and no more computer. I am asking to my self, what will I do?
Hopeless, I feel hopeless. At that time the only thing that I have are my mind and my heart. My mind was so quiet and my heart feel so empty. I don’t want to admit that I am lonely. This is my decision and I am ready for it. I will take all the consequences.
This is my choice!